• Pick up copy of school magazine that has one of my stories in it


• Go to student store; get christmas cards and a new toothbrush
UNLESS OF COURSE THE STUDENT STORE IS CLOSED DUE TO CONSTRUCTION. BUGGER.

• Math


• Work on fleshing out notes for yuletide fic


• Write SOMETHING for ASU


• Die of cold. Srsly, would it kill them to turn on the heat? IT'S BASICALLY DECEMBER, DAMMIT

Okay. Looking over teh sib's LJ (which I never really visited, trying to respect her privacy and all, but it's a public journal, dude)...

Realized that she squee's about many things in media that I do, but simply different media.

Why the hell must she always harsh my squee about these things, then? ARGH! Seriously. This shit makes me think we could be friends...if, you know, she'd stop just being a bitch.

(There is some history behind her bitchy, which is my fault, but it's one of those things that, at least right now, she will not let me even try to make up for. Barrrrgh).

( Memage! )

• Marathon PD S1


• Start Yuletide fic


• Start+finish current Torchwood idea


• Continue notetaking for ASU
OMFG, fic, you are finally coming together!

• Screen anime club nomination


• Watch Dr. Horrible so I can return it to Amanda, finally


• Buy Christmas cards

I miss the girl.

A lot.

That is all.

The desktop meme, stolen from everyone. (has only been my desktop for about ten minutes--I change pretty frequently)

Swiped from the internets. NOTE: There's a large bit of TMI on #2. You have been warned. ALSO: Most of you who know me know how hard it is for me to come up with lists like this. This is simply the five peole I would shag RIGHT NOW. This could change in an hour.


1) List 5 celebrities you would have sex with without even asking questions.
2) Put all of them IN ORDER of your lust for them [5 - 1, 1 is the hottest].
3) Say which movie/show/thing it was that hooked you.
4) Supply photos for said people.
5) Tag five friends to do the same.

( Follow me for pretty! )

TDOR is still kind of hanging over me. Looking at the comics that were done...find out that the odds of being murdered, if you're trans, are 1 in 12...fuck.

And my mind went to Boys Don't Cry.

I saw it shortly after I came out as being queer (bi, specifically). I had not yet even entertained the idea that I might be trans for various reasons. But I remember how much that story shook me to my core. I believe the reason I have never watched it again (outside of not owning it, and the fact it is so fucking depressing) is that...deep down, I think I probably did have this thought of 'that could be me'.

And now? Now it's not 'deep down'. Now when I read about violence against trans people...there are so many times, especially given where I live, when I think that could have been me. Obviously, Brandon's story is not mine. His life is not mine. But the parallels are there in certain parts. And even if we're not stealth like Brandon was, even if we're out and proud so there is no chance that anyone involved with us will discover and kill us because they were lied to...1 in 12.

How is the world at large not angrier about this? Well, I know how, but I'd prefer not to think about it, because when I do I hear those echos of 'no one will come to your funeral, and I'll laugh', and the hurt is fresh and more painful.

Really glad I decided to pick up FFVII again, I need that kind of escape.

I had totally forgotten that today was TDOR.

I could talk about the thinky thoughts I was having today, re: my dysphoria and how it relates to sex or the people we lost this year (too many. One is too many) or a million other angsty things.

Instead:

I am grateful that tomorrow I will be talking to my extremely supportive and understanding partner. That I am alive to talk to her, when so many of our brothers and sisters (and others) have lost or have been lost to their loved ones.

Not as eloquent as I would like, but I am exhausted and if I think more about it I'll just get angry.

Bitch from middle school wasn't there. Actually, I don't see her often, come to think of it. Which isn't surprising, if she hasn't changed much since middle school. So there's no chance (until Tuesday) that I'll run into her, and even that may not happen. This is a good thing.

Man, mass comm paper, why so hard to write?

Also--belgian white chocolate cocoa from Disney? Why so much nastier than you sound and smell? Of course, it could be the fact I had to make you with water instead of milk.

I can't believe tomorrow is Friday. This weekend, I need it. I shouldn't need to recharge from my vacation, but I really do.

I am obsessed with this song right now. And yes, I mean this particular version. I think I'm going to be listening to it on loop while doing some ficcing over break.